What's wrong with me?

I'm pretty much drunk as I'm writing this but maybe that's the remeedy for the inhibitions that normally plague us when we attempt to express our thoughts. My life has changed drastically in the past few months I've moved from city to city, I've fought for my respect at work, I've shifted my life's trajectory.

All changes are mostly positive but here I find myself with my mind racing. I've found a good friend group but I find myself feeling more and more out of place. I've started going out now but I cant even muster up a coherent conversation much less pursue the girls that I'm interested in.

The worrying question plagues my mind. The one that you're told not to ask by any therapist that's worth thier salt. The quesiton is: What's wrong with me?"

The insinuation is because you don't do what the other's' around you have done then you have to have something significantly wrong with you. It is more than an insinuation it's an emotion. The feeling of dread. I am so incredibly shy nobody gets to see my personality and I think consquesntly I am indeed alone.